7 questions

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours.

Doing this again. This time for kor. Mhmm.

Kor:
1. You are good at pulling out random books. (whee!)
2. Pack your file and keep it that way. (Heehee. Had something else in mind but then it wouldn't work since you'll throw it back at me. Namely, ban a certain phrase.)
3. Blue! (No, actually should be multi-colour. Whee! I'm going a bit crazy now.)
4. Kor's nice!
5. Hmm. First time I was at Renee's house and you called her and I was thinking "must be that senior from YO". =p Term 2.
6. Eagle. (Ok... I give really random answers for this question.)
7. Again, I can't think of anything to ask. Since I normally ask the question once I think of it. Mhmm.

There. Haha. Those bracketed comments are amusing. -bounce- Should I do that too for mei's? Never mind. Yayness. I really should be doing work but don't want to. =p Especially a bit of the SL project report and the article on charity concert for CCA. Oops? Why can't I sign into Windows Messenger? -whines-

Whee! Random comment time. The florist at JE MRT sells Kalms bears at really expensive prices. Was walking around with sylvie today and then saw this huge bear in the display window which was $400+?! Even the minature version which has the height of an A4 paper is like $40+?! Ack. I don't want to stop blogging. Shall go on then...

Ohh. What is it with people not believing it when I tell them it's my first time at -insert activity-? For example, pool. Then yesterday, art. Trying to throw a pot. Ms Ching complimented me and asked whether it was really my first time. Uhhuh. -blinks- I'm not that good til it's perfect and all but really, it's kind of nice to be able to handle the task well enough. So ya... Just finding it interesting.

Let's see. Shall blog about today. Nothing much except that I miss mei! Pft. Never mind. Went school later since I saw no point in going early. Was kind of weird to stand alone during flag-rising since I was in the center of the line. Heehee. Then chemistry. Mei, you don't have that much to catch up but you missed a quiz. Mhmm. Break. Chinese. -cringe- Was trying to stay awake. He spent 40 minutes going through one zuo wen question. Uhhuh. Then after that, english. -bounce- For once. Too bad you missed it, mei. She was asking as to identify the title of the songs based on the lyrics and stuff. Then later, had to come up with new song lyrics for an existing tune and the lyrics were supposed to be about one of the topics we've studied so far. E.g. Persuation/Argument/Reviews, etc... Mhmm. -feels rather accomplished- Tell you more about it tomorrow or something. Lunch. A part of it was spent in a classroom and blasting music. =) Relaxing. Physics. Haha. Skip to music theory. As usual, doing and doing more theory. Mhmm. After that, went JE central with sylvie. Gave the library a miss due to time constraints. Pft. That's about it, I guess. Ok... This paragraph seems to be an account of school. Weirdness.

got tagged.

Oh well. Mei tagged me to do this (as usual...) so yeps. Hmm. If anyone of you wants me to do, just leave a tag on my blog or something then I'll answer the questions for you.

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours.

Mei:
1. Your personality's like Gabriella! =)
2. Agree with me, kor and vanessa when we praise you.
3. Pink, purple, blue. Haha. Basically, your few scrunchie colours that I see the most.
4. You're nice too!
5. Erm. Erm. Let's see. I don't remember much about you from last year except that you were chasing everyone for money. Treasurer. Glo was slacking so much.
6. Deer. Random but yeps.
7. Ack. I can't think of a question. Guess it's because we just ask each other the questions straight away.

What mei said about me:
1) Fun to tease. Though remember never to take me seriously about stuff like that. Hahaha.
2) Not stay up and talk on the phone for at least one whole month.
3) White (don't ask me why. I've no idea either.)
4) Your chio-ness!! WHEE. Haha. Erm. Fine. Your niceness. xD
5) Haha. I dunno leh. Lol.
6) Dolphin! Lalala.
7) Haha. Will ask when I think of something to ask. (again)

Disclaimer: I do not agree with the first part of (4). Mhmm. And er.. I doubt I can fulfil (2). Oh well. I'll try my best, ok? But erm... Seriously, I doubt so.

1/2 of sep hols

Hmm. Haven't been blogging cause I wasn't in the mood or had no time, not because of my computer. Heehee. In fact, it was fine the night I went back home from mei's house. Mhmm.

Let's see. I'll do a short recap of the past few days.

Wednesday. Went out with kor, mei and nes to catch "The Devil wears Prada" @ Cineleisure. Rather interesting. Then after that, headed to Plaza Sing. Then walked around more at Plaza Sing. Basically, one day of rest away from the 4 walls at home and a pile of homework. Yeps. =) Laadeedaas. (Do I sense someone trying to keep the mood up?)

Thursday. Attempting to do homework but to be honest, not that successful. =p Evening time, dinner with the section (or those who could make it) and then watched "A Series of Unfortunate Events" at Powerbase. Very comfy beanbags. =)

I'll skip friday because there wasn't much to blog about. Saturday... Hmm. Lunch with Sis Serena before service. Just a time of catching up? Service - Faith promise. FUEL - time management. Haha. What a suitable topic. My time management is almost non-existent. Cause I tend to mix up my priorities. =p Dinner with mel, jeann and isaac. Then... *drum roll* went home. And got my handphone confiscated. Haha. Yeps. My mum was angry at the fact that I only drank 1 cup of water from the time I woke up til the time I reached home. (in my defence, I drank a lot of liquid such as coke but nvm...) So yes, my dad suggested hitting where it hurt the most so had to surrender my phone. Surprisingly, I was rather numb to it all and didn't freak out like normal. Guess that isn't what hurts the most. As I wrote in my diary after my phone was confiscated, it isn't taking away of material things that hurt the most. I do value them but there are some things I value more. Mhmm.

Today. Usual. Went to my dad's house. Attempted to do work but as usual, not that successful. Thanks mei for helping. =) And since I was rather bored there, installed AuditionSea on the computer. It's basically an online dancing game where you "dance" using the keyboard. Kind of sad that I'm actually playing that. But since I'm there only once a month or so, can't get addicted so didn't see the harm in playing and amusing myself. Today and every other sunday I'm there just serves to reinforce my theory that ... I have almost no appetite on Sundays. I'm fine with eating my lunch at 3pm and (almost) skipped dinner. Forced myself to buy something and brought it home to eat. So there. Then finished up my physics project and finally I'm blogging...
This entry is still shorter than what I want but never mind, really got to sleep now. School starts again tomorrow. Swimming PE first thing in the morning. How fun.

Side note: It's hard to find PJs that don't have some cute hello-kitty or some other cartoon on them. (Need PJs for swimming...) Found a nice blue one though. Plain enough.

meeting up with mei

Whoa. Met up with mei yesterday, today and probably tomorrow. Yesterday and today was to do physics project. Tomorrow's just to catch "The Devil wears Prada" with her, nes and maybe kor? Mhmm.

Haha. Both days have been rather fun and bearable even though we met up for -cringe- physics. Let's see... Yesterday, she came over at 9am and fattened her up a bit with mashed potatoes before going to the library. Lunch followed by a trip to popular for stationery. Ohh! We bought matching notebooks! =) Then went back to my house where my computer decided to die and couldn't boot up. Which explains why I've been missing from MSN and probably won't be on much the next few days. So no blog entries, i think. Managed to do 2 sections of our report before we decided to rest for the day and watched "Ice Princess". Yayness! I got mei wanting to look for the soundtrack. Forgot how nice it was already. Mhmm. =)

Today... Went over to her house at 10am and then started doing more work and typing out our report. We came up with a very nice system. One of us would be using the computer and typing out the stuff while the other one slacks. And then we alternate. Works pretty well actually. Since each of us have sections we prefer to do so it's fairly even. =) And yayness! We finally completed the project. Fine... At least 90% of it anyway. Left the pasting of the information unto the board and the decoration. That's up to me to do... Worried about destroying the board. -pressurized- Haha. Never mind.

Okies. It's past 5:30pm now... I really should leave mei's house now. -shudders at the thought of the rush hour crowd- Haiz. Hopefully my computer gets repaired soon so I can go online more often. Mhmm. Bye for now. Ohh! One more thing. Realized that me and mei have the habit of talking to inanimate objects. At first, I said it was more normal than talking to yourself but then I realized that at least you get a response when you talk to yourself but when you talk to inanimate objects... Rofl. Whee! I'm sleepy but now getting a bit crazy. Mhmm. =) Okies. Question of the day: Does talking to inanimate objects run in the family?

everything in a new light

Hmm... Thank you mel for having dinner with me yesterday. =) It was great being able to talk freely with someone. Anyway, realized how things have changed when I was answering some questions that mel asked.

I've realized for quite some time already that the situations I find myself in is really different compared to before. But it's different when you actually acknowledge it and accept that the situation has changed. I guess that's what happened last night when I couldn't sleep and started writing in my diary. (Ok... I'm not really making sense. Heehee. Even I can't figure out what I'm trying to write about.)

Okies. Enough of the weird vague sentences and all, time to blog about events and stuff? Yayness. It's the sep hols. =) Even though it's only a 1 week break, that means it's 1 week where I don't have to wake up at 6am. =) Time to catch up on my sleep. As much as possible anyway. And besides, I get the house to myself for the whole day. There's already certain activities planned for this holiday such as mei coming over to discuss -cringe- physics project, going out to watch "The Devil wears Prada". Mhmm... That's about it for now, I think.

Uhhoh. Better stop spending time on the computer. Time to tidy up the house/my room since mei's coming over. Heehee. Actually, I'm just going to fold the clothes while watching the last disc of that dancing series that I've neglected since the June holidays. Yeps. =p

attempts

Before this, I came up with a draft of a blog entry but I just deleted it. Firstly, it isn't all that relevant now.

Anyway, I really should be doing my work but right now, nothing seems to be getting in my brain. Let's see. Only 3 physics questions and a few diagrams of cells to draw but I haven't had any progress since a few hours ago. Really tried attempting but nothing seems to work. Right now, all I want to do is to lie down on my bed and sleep but I'll get it tomorrow with all my work undone. So I'm staying up. I can't afford to not hand it and have that pull down my CA grade. No matter what I say and/do, I do still have an expectation for myself in terms of academic results.

Talking about attempts... Haiz. So many failed attempts. At least I consider them failures while others might view it differently. Hmm, interesting how I still keep on trying again and again even when I've failed so many times. Then again, I'm only referring to a specific area in life. Now if only that applied to my attitude towards studies, etc...

charity concert

I'm finally getting down to blogging about the charity concert. Yayness! =)

Okies, shall start off with a bit about the rehearsals on wednesday and friday? Actually, it was never a proper rehearsal in the sense that they didn't manage to run through the whole show but it was fun! =) At least we managed to enjoy ourselves, ya? Then on fri... -cringe- That was a weird day. After math test, then rehearsal. But cause there was quite a bit of free time in between and we had nothing to do so our minds would wander. Yeps. But yes, I just want to say "Thanks!" to you two. Mhmm. Though I wouldn't have mind being alone, it means a lot that you two came. =) Yeps, so thank you! =) And at least, we ended the day on a high note. =) -starts belting out songs from HSM-

Then, finally 26th Aug. A bit after 2 months since the idea first came about. Hmm. Started off the day really high! Ordered McDelivery to school and ate before lazing around and putting on make-up. -blank- Like hmm. Putting on make-up was rather amusing since it's been awhile since I had to put on make-up. And considering I've never put make-up on myself before.
-amused- Mhmm. Yay. Had mei and charmaine to help me. But then had to touch up a bit on my own. Then rehearsal in the auditorium again followed by the matinee (is that how you spell it?). Erm. To be honest, it wasn't that good? At in our performance. Think we were more hyper as a group on friday's rehearsal. But oh well. Then dinner followed by another 1-2hr of waiting before the final performance. Hmm. That was one roller-coaster ride of emotions again? Deja vu, hmm? Thanks mei for letting me go up to the 5th floor. =) And see, just as I said, "ask and it will be given"... Lol. But yes, I'll try my best to not run off (w/o telling you two), ok? I can't promise no matter how much i want to. Mhmm. Then the attempt to bring the hyperness level up and it worked! =) Yayness. Was jumping backstage and being really high. Yeps. Think the energy level improved a lot from the afternoon show. =) But oops, forgot my steps. To make things worse, it was the Wildcats part lah. -mei lian jian ren- Haha. It's hanyu pinyin by the way. Mhmm. Yeps. Then was so high + the fact that I got permission to stay out and celebrate. =) -bounce- Really late dinner at Macs then went home and finally managed to sleep at 1.

Then yesterday, me and mei were feeling rather bored and started looking around at blog entries by others on the charity concert. Found quite a few interesting comments. But shaln't post them. Mhmm. Sighs. It's all over.
-sniffs- I'm going to miss those fridays where we stayed back to slack/sing/dance, etc... Never mind, we shall try to continue staying back on fridays, ok? =)

birthday! =)

Okies. Now that my birthday's over, can blog about it. Yeps. =)

Firstly, thank you to all those who've wished me happy birthday be it through MSN, sms, phone call or in person. Yeps. Yay! I shall list out the whole list of people then. Makes me feel good. Haha.

Sammi has the honour of being the first to wish me happy birthday. As I said to her, very fitting. Yeps. Then mei and didi. Thanks. =) The rest, I'll shall list the names, ok? Ding, Kor, Sylvie, Isaac, Nes, An Ren, Shao, Gloria (both my friend and my cousin), Rachel, my mum, my uncle, my father, Han Chang, Bryan (as in my senior from school), Jeann, Shu Mei, Hannah, Juztin, Nicolas, gan jie. Er... Did I miss out anyone? -blurred- I apologize if I did, ya? But thanks to everyone. Including those who went on the 10th of aug. Mhmm.

Okies. Now that I've done thanking you all for the birthday wishes, next, it's time to blog about the day itself and presents! -bounce- Let's just say the day started off in a way I never forseen. Haha. Starting referring to 12midnight. Various smses and one phone call. Then go to school and receive presents! =) I like. =) Had to sit through various 2-hr long lessons.
-yawns- Got poked a lot since someone came up with the weird logic that since it's my 15th birthday, my "family" get to poke me 15 times. Let's see. Lux, Sylvie, Ding, didi, Kor, mei and Nes. Go calculate how many pokes. But yay! Kor and didi are nice. Didn't poke me. =) went to auntie's house for delicious dinner. Whee! I like the birthday cake from N.Y.D.C Chocolate!! =) But yes, realized I cut 3 cakes this year. ohh well. There. Next, presents! Ok, I'm kind of lazy to blog in detail cause I want to go sleep soon but I'll spare a few lines.

Thank you to all those who gave me presents! Haha. I got 2 wind-chimes from different people. Yayness. Finally. So shall hang in my room. Hanged up one already. Now trying 2 figure out where to hang the other one. =) Ohh. Piglet! It's really cute and actually quite huggable. Other presents were also nice such as what my parents gave. New 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle! And also got a nice new wallet and a bag. Whee! My cousin and auntie have good taste. And as usual, various red packets. Whew. Was almost broke before that. =p Heehee. But ya, there wasn't anything that large other than the 10th aug thing but still this birthday is one of those memories I want to keep. =)

questions

Since mei tagged me... Oh well. Here goes.

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAME STARTS WITH A "S"
A: Sammi! =)

Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS:
A: No one cause I just cleared my call history a few days ago. =p

Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?:
A: Hey! Happy birthday! =) know that God is always watching over you!

Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A: Nope.

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: Erm. In between curly and wavy? =p

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOURE GOING TO?
A: Charity Concert! Actually, I'm performing but still counted, right?

Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
A: Huh?!

Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY A LOT?
A: Uhhuh... (But really, quite a few words.)

Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE:
A: M&M with peanut inside

Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
A: "Nothing. Just something my friend said." in reply to my mum when she asked who I was smiling to... =p

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A: Sometimes.

Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE DONNIE DARKO?
A: What's that? Nope.

Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
A: No.

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: Erm. A bit early to think about it, ya?

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?
A: Hmm. Probably to mei. But in a strictly platonic way.

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?:
A: Looking through my notes for trig viva tomorrow or doing log assignment?

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: a few. most used ones are chermy/mei/jie?

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
A: No?

Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY ?
A: Jonathan. =)

Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
A: Mhmm.

Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
A: Quite. But nowadays, I'm no longer such a heavy sleeper.

Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
A: Don't even understand the question.

Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: Haven't used.

Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE?
A: Erm... Dozed off at my auntie's hse quite a few times?

Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
A: No. No car what.

Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
A: None.

Best
1. Male friend: Kor and Isaac? -shrugs-
2. Female friend: Quite a few though. Sammi, gan jie, mei, etc...
3. Vacation: None in particular.
4. Day of the week: No particular day but most probably friday?
5. Food: now now, that's obvious, isn't it? I have a sweet tooth. =)
6. Memory: Quite a few. Today's one of them. =)

Last [Not counting family]
1. Person you saw: stranger at the void deck downstairs?
2. Talked to on the phone: Mei.
3. Hugged: Hmm. Can't seem to remember. Honestly.
4. Person you texted: MSN, sammi. Sms, kor.

Today
1. Is: my birthday!
2. Got any plans: Finish blogging then look thru trig notes?
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: Chinese essay test.

Favorites
1. Number(s): 22
2. Song: Several. Just go through my MP3 player?
3. Color: blue! my "element"'s water. =)
4. Season: Haven't been in a country with seasons but I'll like to experience spring and autumn.

Currently
1. Missing someone: Yeps.
2. Mood: Happyish + sleepy.

True or False
I am a morning person: depends.
I am a perfectionist: depends on what area of life.
I am an only child: False
I am currently in my pajamas: False
I am online 24/7: False
I am very shy around the opposite gender: depends
I can be paranoid at times: So true. -pointed look-
I currently regret something that I have done: not really.. (surprising.)
I enjoy talking on the phone: True
I have a lot to learn: True
I have a secret: True

There. All answered. Though I want to blog about today, I'll leave that for later. Shall do a bit of work and revision first. =( Haha.

recovery time

Heehee. I'm not exercising enough self-control. Tsk myself. Even though there's chem test tomorrow, unfinished shui bi and biology flipbook, I'm still taking time to blog, read blogs, listen to music, etc. =p Oops?

Anyway, today was fascinating and it was rather interesting to observe my mood throughout the day. Actually, it's not that fascinating or interesting but rather two main areas that I find surprising. Yeps. Started off today quite well. Carry-over from yesterday's mood? =) -feels accomplished- Continued being in quite a good mood throughout math. English was average but something came to mind and brought me down one notch but recovered quite fast. =) Then followed by break and chinese and -cringe- physics. Had the test today. Ahh... At first, my mind was working and the first 3 MCQ questions were answered rather quickly then I suspect I got over-confident and ended up blanking out for the rest of the paper. Picked myself back up and focus and managed to do more of the paper. Enough to make me feel satisfied and contended. Regardless of the results. But I think I might have a chance in doing better compared to last semester. That's my aim really. Mentoring session. Talk on leadership development and we were kind of forced into picking one programme. Dang! I wanted to go for the leadership development programme but logically speaking, it would take up a lot of time next year but illogically speaking, I want it... But not too sure why and found it surprising how it took me so long to cancel out that option. ><

Lunch followed by choir practice. Whee! It's so great to see everything coming together. It's been 2 months from the time the idea first came up. Can't wait for the actual day itself. =) But yeps, first chance to practice in our attire. -laughs- Then after that, a short break before going to a classroom with the usual people (kor, mei, nes) to just relax. For once, we didn't dance and just revised chem/write/stone/practice singing... Yeps. Mhmm. It was then I realized that my mood kind of took a sudden drop. Very freaky. I couldn't place what triggered it off and it made me more disturbed. Came very close to wanting to get out of the classroom and find some nice quiet isolated corner in the school. Heehee. But ya, didn't end up doing that. So was just stoning in the classroom and talking (occasionally...) Dang. Not happy with myself during that time, could have controlled a lot better. Be it in the area of controlling the emotion or controlling what's on the surface. -shrugs-

Then after that, my mood improved a lot. =) Thanks kor (and mei)! Yeps. Mei, don't think you realize it, ya? But heehee. Waiting with you for your dad was a fun time and it made me laugh + smile. =) Then to kor. Yeps, you obviously realized and so thanks for cheering me up. But yes, I'm pleasantly surprised at how my mood can pick up so fast nowadays. But dang, it can still go down as fast as last time. Pft. But at least the frequency has decreased significantly? Yeps.

Okies. It's almost 11. Think I really should shut down the computer and all. Yeps.

end of that kind of tiredness?

Why am I blogging so much these days? -warning signs?-

But anyway, tiredness has appeared in my title for the third consecutive time and hopefully the last. Things haven't improved that much from the last time I blogged but a few minor things have changed? For one, I feel slightly better now that I've completed quite a large part of the bio flipbook. All that's left is improving it and putting it together. So I've let myself enjoy 30 minutes of break without feeling guilty. Next, a nice shower kept me awake enough to do my work just now. =) It was pretty alarming when I started to work on "auto-mode"... Yeps. Whee! And lastly, I've decided that there was a severe need to pull myself out of that kind of tiredness. Physically, I can't do much. Emotionally and mentally, I can try. I don't want to fall back into anything remotely close to moodiness. Besides, I can't exactly infect people with hyperness if I'm tired so yes, got to pull myself out of it. Yeps. Hopefully, the next week, I get hyper enough... (Forgetting the fact that there are 2 tests coming up this week. Yeps. Of course...)

tiredness (continued)

Considering that my previous entry didn't really touch on the title much, I shall try to blog on this again. Firstly, I've been very sleepy. Exceptionally so. Last night by 9 plus, I was sleepy but since I was out, had to wait til 11 before I could sleep. There went any plans I had of staying up and doing my work. Only got out of bed at 11am today. That bad.

But now, physical well-being aside. My emotional state hasn't been that good either? -shrugs- To be honest, this week's been one of the worst week in terms of mood. Quite surprising. Considering that it was the nice long National Day break and all but my mood's been quite bad compared to the rest of this year. What's bothering me? I really don't know or don't want to know. Actually, it's more like I know but I'm in denial. Happy now that I've finally admitted that I'm in denial? =p But yes... Been trying to push the issue to the back of my head but good luck to myself for that. -shrugs- Anyway, was kind of freaked out by how my mood just changed... From being tired to the verge of crying. It was so sudden. Bah. But yes, hopefully it's just my physical tiredness that's affecting my mood. But I have my doubts about it? -attempts to be hyper- Doesn't work. Hasn't been that hyper in awhile already. Yes, a week or so without me being exceptionally hyper has become abnormal. Oh well...

tiredness

I was trying to decide between tiredness or sleepiness as the title. There's a reason I chose the former. Yeps. Since sleepiness only refers to physical weariness but tiredness can refer to more than that? =p

Ok... Been really sleepy today. As usual, took awhile to drag myself out of bed. The air-con was on, that's my excuse. (No, I don't sleep with the air-con on much unless it's a hot day or something so ya, tend to laze in my bed more when the air-con's on.) =p Went to school, was rather sleepy and rested for a few minutes during mentoring session. Heehee. Interesting debate between the students and the teachers on the motion that "Science and technology has done more good than harm in today's society." Something along those lines... Yeps. Then a short break before Math bridging module. -cringe- Stupid error during the quiz. Yes mei, I know you're highly amused by it, ya? Lol. Oh well. -examines my head- A nice 1 hour lunch break which I attempted to sleep in the canteen, unsuccessfully. Never did like sleeping in school unless I'm that tired and I know my friends are around. Yeps. Then it started raining.
-pouts- Mei and nes didn't let me go out into the rain. ><>

Oh. Then the usual session of singing + dancing at our classroom. =) The people from H.O.M.E came down. Yeps. Still pleasantly surprised and very impressed by how fast they pick up the song and the dance and their attitude towards the item is really different from erm... another group of people? -cough- But was still rather sleepy which led to overall tiredness. Though I probably could have gotten hyper, decided it took too much effort so ya. It's become a routine to stay in school til 5 plus, 6 on fridays already. Lol. Good and bad? I'm looking foward to the few days before charity concert. Will be busy but think it'll be fun and memorable. =) That's all for today. Shall go off and sleep early tonight. Ohh. Interesting how I didn't blog about what I wanted to. =p

10th august

Although I want to elaborate on my previous entry, I don't really like editing entries unless the need arises so I think I might just re-blog about it here? Then again, I might just focus on today. Ack. Thoughts all over the place... Too disorganized. Ok, I'll just try blogging about today. =p

Anyway, from where I ended off, I was getting ready to go to the library. Went to the library and as usual, went a bit crazy over books? Had to practice a lot of self-control. Especially that whole shelf of books written by Mercedes Lackey. -pointed look- Haha. Yeps. Then lunch... Urk. Don't like it when I'm eating for the sake of eating and not really enjoying food. Lack of appetite? Then the rather amusing 15 minutes of standing by a pillar at the MRT station... Must have seemed weird to those people walking by? Ok. For the next paragraph or so, I shall attempt to get my thoughts in order instead of jumping all around the place.

Interesting how MRT rides could be so eventful? I seem to be in the habit of taking long MRT rides these few days. Orchard to Jurong East via the North-South line yesterday then today, Jurong East to Pasir Ris and back. Anyway, the whole situation was really unexpected. What if... If only time could be turned back? *****. Laadeedaas. No, it's not a swear word or anything... Just a word that I rather/cannot spell out. =p Heehee. But yes, very unexpected. Just interersting (?) how the whole situation was... To be honest, interesting doesn't fit the whole situation. It's more of unexpected and alarming. "Unexpected" is being used for 4 times, that says a lot? Regrets but what's past is past, right? Hopefully. But I just need to say that even though the fact that I can have such an idea makes it more than enough for hesitation to arise, I want to state this clearly. Yes, there has to be a basis for an idea but no matter how extreme the idea is, I will not carry it out. Not today, not any other day. As I said, it'll probably be one of the biggest regrets of my life and one of the lowest points too. Yeps. Yay. Just wanted to re-affirm that, ok? =) Thanks.

Went Pasir Ris Park... Then just walk around, drink Lychee ice blended. (Too much sugar already?) 1 round of bridge only. Then frisbee playing. ^_- Yay, my catching hasn't detoriated that much? Ohh yes... I'm trying to figure out the sense in playing soccer at that particular area when there's so much space around? So yes, had to concentrate on 2 flying objects. Pft. Anyway, it was interesting attempting to eat a melted mango cake. But yes, it made the day memorable? Ohh yes, how can I forget? Playing with fire. Throwing of ice. Then making my way back home. Ahh. Good timing? Managed to catch the bus just in time... -time to insert current msn nickname- But yes... Seriously, people should remember that I'm not blind or deaf. I can see and hear, you know? But overall, amusing and slightly better than what I expected? Yeps. But very tired... Think I'll go sleep soon. That's all for now? Anyway, the mood of this entry isn't as positive as I want it to be... Too tired? But after all that's said and done, I want to say a big "THANK YOU" to all those at Pasir Ris Park today. Especially the 3 "organizers". Yeps. Thank you, I appreciate the effort. And for those who came, thanks for taking the time to go. Yeps. That's all.

national day break

Yayness, finally some time to blog. Actually, things haven't been that bad. It's just that I over-loaded myself with stuff over this break so haven't been home much which means less time in front of the computer so not that much time to blog.

Ok. Considering the schedule that I gave myself which means I have to leave the house in about 30 minutes and go to the library. Yes, go ahead and kill me for not rushing to pasir ris asap but there are other things I need to settle first, so yeps.

Anyway, the past few days have been good but could have been better? I think I'll blog in the style of just words without elaboration. Yeps.

Tuesday. McDonald breakfast. Honey! Walking around. Sugar over-load. Objective shopping. More sugar. Sports Day. House Cup. Talking. Waiting. Weirdness. Fireworks. Smses. Wednesday. Orchard. More walking around. White skirt. Drop in mood. Talking. Clothes. Bright red. Kinokuniya. Art Friend. Talking. Walking. Dinner. Today... Urk. Decision. Moodiness (?). Reluctance.

Urk... I really don't like blogging this way so I think I'll edit this entry some other time. But the library calls so yeps.

the notebook

Whoa. My third entry of the day. Though it's not a record or anything, it's not that common for me to blog so many times in one day? At least not all on the same blog. Oh well. -shrugs-

Anyway, regarding the title of this entry. "The Notebook". Nope, this isn't going to be an entry for me to blog about notebooks and all. (Hmm, maybe I should do that?) Lol. But anyway, it's the title of a book written by Nicholas Sparks. And also the title of a movie adaptation of the book. Yeps. Just watched it today. Thanks Sylvie for lending me the disc! =) But yeps, was just watching it and enjoying the chance to relax and enjoy the show. Though there are probably a few issues that I could blog about, I'm not really in the mood to do that? Hmm. Shall just rant on about the show in general. Ohh! The sunset in the show was really nice. The whole setting... Like the house and the lake. -swoons- Lol. Bah. Can't think of anything to write. Too bad I can't do the english movie review on this. =( Never mind.

Forget it, this entry's too short. Time to lengthen the entry? Let's see... I'll just write about notebooks then? =) Whee! Let's see. The habit of writing in notebooks started in Nanyang. Gan Jie's influence. There was the bubble notebook that I wrote and doodled in during Secondary 2. Then this year, it's the multi-colour notebook. Yeps. And a smaller blank book for doodles and lyrics. Laadeedaa. Hmm. I want to blog but don't know what to blog about. Pft. So shall end this entry here... Heehee. My blogskin is nice! =) (ok... that was random.)

change of blogskin

It should be obvious that I've changed my blogskin yet again. No, it's not because of all the comments regarding my previous choice of blogskins. If it was due to that, my current blogskin won't be this one either so ya...

But yes, I like my new blogskin! =) Shall attempt to keep it for a long while. It's nice... The picture and the words! Heehee. And felt like changing all the format of the other sections to suit the feel of the blogskin so started editing my cbox and the format of my wishlist. -feels accomplished- And now, shall start blogging in a smaller font! Whee! =)

anger - unforgiveness - bitterness

I realized that it's been quite a while since I blogged about the pastor's sermon. Considering how last year I would blog in detail about the sermon but this year, don't think I've done that much. Oh well. Anyway, this sermon's rather interesting to comment on especially after I thought about it and realized certain stuff. Yeps. Anger management...

Initially, I didn't think the sermon would apply to me that much. After all, I don't really get angry often at people. And normally even if I do get angry, I keep it under control unless it's really too much. But then the more I thought about it, the more I realized how it wasn't really true. There's this one line that stands out from yesterday's sermon. Anger leads to bitterness which leads to unforgiveness... Ouch. Laadeedaa. There's still that issue I was wondering whether I've surrendered totally and well, it's better but it'll take time. And ya, was reminded of some anger directed towards a certain person which I really should let go... Oh well.

Bah. Don't like the mood of this entry. Shall have to make it more light-hearted but how? Ohh! I realized that I have like 10 Disney CDs! =) Yayness! And that doesn't even include the up-coming one that's going to be added to my collection. Whee! =) Ok. Wait. Some of it isn't really Disney but soundtracks from animated movies... Doesn't matter.

1) Disney Forever Volume 1
2) Disney Forever Volume 2
3) Disney Forever Volume 3
4) Disney Love Hits
5) Mulan soundtrack
6) Lilo and Stitch soundtrack
7) Disney Refresh!
8) Bambi 2 soundtrack
9) Anastasia soundtrack
10) Quest for Camelot soundtrack

To be precise, 9 and 10 shouldn't be counted. Yeps. But I don't care. =p Heehee. Whee! Going to have new CD added to this collection soon!

random ramblings

I do have certain things that I want to blog about but since my thoughts are not really organized and plus the fact that I want to sleep, I think I'll make this entry short.

Lol. Had to double-check what I blogged in the previous entry, actually forgot what I blog about. Yeps. Hmm... The week's been acceptable? More or less. Though there've been the usual few times of hyperness, it's not as much as before. Pft. All 4 of us are too tired, aren't we? But ya, school's enjoyable and everything went quite well. Even after biology lesson yesterday. I still wondered what would have happened if I stayed throughout the entire video on abortion. Rather interested but since I chose to leave the class, that's one thing I shaln't ever know? Yeps. Today was quite good... I would have said good but there are some things that affect it? Laadeedaa. Not very obvious, I think. Then again, those around me are perceptive... Haha. But generally, today's another one of those nice fridays. =) -feels rather accomplished- Managed to teach the people from H.O.M.E all the way to the wildcats part. Heehee. Yeps. Dang... I wanted to blog about stuff and all but this shall do for now since I still can't blog in detail here. Besides, wrote in my diary already. Gdnight

readable

Hmm. It amuses me when those people around me can read me so easily or know me to the extent that they can voice out what I'm thinking. Especially yesterday. Mei answered a question on my behalf and the answer was so accurate. In the sense that it's one of those answers I keep to myself and don't reveal but she could still say it out? Like. Whoa. The answer was obvious and all but the phrasing and everything. Impressive.

I've never been one for masking my feelings/opinions/etc, don't you agree? There are very few things that people don't know about... But it just struck me on how those I thought knew me well just can't seem to be able to read me nowadays. Laadeedaas. Shaln't elaborate. Was thinking of keeping this post til later but never mind. Shall just blog vaguely. Guess I began to have expectations of how well my friends could read me or understand me? Which isn't good. But I like to think they aren't that high. Considering that I still smile each time someone can voice out my opinion and all for me. Yeps. But being readable and easily understood...

Even now, I do wish that at times I could keep more to myself but it's just not me. No matter how I try, I can't. For a short period of time only... at best. Pft. Why am I blogging this again? -shrugs- Never mind. Goodnight. I really should go sleep now. Laadeedaa. Yeps.

meeting of 3 grps....

By now, I really shouldn't be surprised that I'm always the one "bullied" when people from 2 or more groups meet... Anyway, just to make it clear. I count it as 4 groups in total. HPPS (namely sammi), NYGH (gan jie, shao and glo), NUSHS (mei and kor), church (isaac and mel). Anyway, there've been quite a few times where 2 or more groups meet and erm... it's a diaster for me? Lol. Yesterday was no exception.

Sammi with isaac and mel is normally bad enough already then those 3 were amusing themselves and started smsing kor so eventually kor came down to serene. To be really honest, it was rather entertaining to watch them. As long as I'm not the topic of discussion or what. Yeps. Anyway, there went any chance of me finishing homework at serene. Lol. But yeps. Interesting how most of the groups have no problem at all interacting with each other. -amused-

That's about it, I guess? Just felt like doing a quick post on yesterday's dinner. That's all.

Getting spoilt

Whee! Ok. I'm getting too pampered/spoilt. Heehee. Let's see. Yesterday, actually got permission to watch "The Lake House" with Mei and her family. Like, totally unexpected which made me so hyper! But yes, I was wishing I could watch and couldn't think of how I would find time to watch it and then presto! That's the nice, happy part. Then some other parts of the day, laadeedaa.

Ohh! Today! The day didn't start out all that good actually but then it got a lot better! =) Especially after 1:30pm! -bounce- Firstly, got let off early from bridging module then I became hyper. Add milo dinosaur and friends into the equation and you get... Us scarily high! And of course, there was a conclusion to the previous day so that helped a lot. Didn't think I deserved to be let off the hook that soon. So thanks! Anyway, ran with Mei and Kor around the track since I felt bad for erm... not running for 800m so she had to run. Dui bu qi. Yeps. Then later, proceed to E1-14 and just slack as usual? Ohh. Actually ordered KFC to our school.. Laadeedaa. Lol. So fun! Then later, more slacking which involved a bit of dance, lots of singing, chinese chess (?!), talking, etc... So fun! Whee! Then to top it all off, went library. Now, going to the library is more than enough. But plus the fact that I'm getting pampered and haven't gone to the library by myself for a month or even more? Heehee. So it was more like super fun! Yeps. Thanks kor. Whee! Then went home considerably later than usual but parents didn't say anything + chicken chop rice for dinner. So it's been great. I'm really blessed and for that, thanks to all those who make me feel this way. =)

worst day in a long while

Hmm. It's been quite a while since I came so close to the verge of moodiness? Anyway, I wanted to blog about the presentation that the other group gave and how it erm... affected me. Yeps. Anyway, I apologize to you, mei, if I affected you anyway. Was kind of fascinated by how my mood just went downhill so easily and even more fascinated by how there was this really fine line between breaking down and not breaking down. Let's just say if class had ended earlier, the nearest deserted place or toilet would have been where I went. But kind of recovered soon after?
(Why am I blogging this here?!) Oh well. Doesn't matter. What I want to blog isn't suitable to be placed on most of my blogs. Maybe shall just write it out on paper. Yeps. See how.

physical day

Ok. I just deleted last night's entry since it was really short and not as detailed as I want it to be. Slight problem here though. I want to do both a recount of my day and yet blog a bit deeper (as in blog about my feelings at certain point in times and so on)... I would normally just blog but after sammi kindly burst the nice illusion I have about people not reading my blog, I'm a bit reluctant to blog? Laadeedaa... Sammi, you just had to be always that honest, didn't you? Oh well. I'll start with recounting first... Then the rest, see how. But I'll be open enough to blog about my feelings on one of my blogs that's not my private blog so it's either this one or MSN space.

Cross-country cum 2.4km yesterday. Yes, to other schools, you all will probably find it unfair but hey, I'm not really complaining. It was at east coast park anyway. Niceness. Too bad I missed the sunrise... And didn't go down to the beach. But at least the view was nice when we ran. Anyway, feels rather accomplished in the fact that I improved for 2.4km by 1 minute. =) I'll attribute only a little of that to the view. I think it's the running with my mei which helped a lot. As in, trying to keep up with her alone could improve my timing already. Yeps. I think we kind of work well together. Considering that she can start off fast but get tired easily then I'll push her and then towards the end, she'll be the one pushing me. Yeps. I must learn how to sprint the last part though. Anyway, mei, you did well. So don't care about what your mum and or bro said, okies? For those who want to know my 2.4 timing, it's 13 minutes and 40 over seconds, I think. Considering most of you all are trackers or can run well, I know that's quite bad. But hey, that's your standard. Laadeedaa.

Next part of the day. The break between 2.4km and the racial harmony games. (I'm even mentioning the break?! How detailed am I being? ziah... Too much time now to blog so ya...) Anyway, I realized that I recover rather quickly. As in, I've haven't pushed myself that much before? Ever. For 2.4km the previous years, I get back to normal within maximum 15-20 minutes? As in, I was hyper after 2.4km as in the kind of -jumps around- hyperness. And the -i can run it all over again- kind of energy. Yeps. Which is why I always regret not pushing myself harder only after the run. zaih... Laadeedaa. After that, racial harmony games. For the year 3s, it was this time where your class forms a chain with your hands then one person from the opposing team would try to drag a person away from the chain into their side of the playing field. Yeps. Yayness. Our class actually won. Hmm. We can work rather well at times, I guess. But a bit too competitive. The strategy was good. Though similar to the other class, we reinforced the human chain so good defence and even better attacking. Rough and violent though. Anyway, because we won the preliminary round, we got to advance to the finals and each level faced off by competing to see who had the best timing for the station. Basically the station was "Extreme Gourmet", fear-factor style? Urk. Wrong choice of food item. Never mind, my stomach survived. Yeps. Prize-giving, etc...

Went back to school from East Coast Park. Direct bus. Yayness. Thanks kor for finding out where the busstop was. Like walk to VS then take. Yeps. Anyway, the 11 of us who were willing to go back to practice the dance took the bus together and went back to school. Ordered canadian pizza for everyone while on the bus and er... A bit of miscalculation in timing so the delivery guy had to wait about 10 minutes for us. -thinks about 2 siblings who decided to run back to sch- (Shaln't comment.) Anyway, we were eating the pizza and being amused by topping-full pizza slices and topping-less pizza slices. Taught the rest the couples part. Ya... So scandalous, right? Oh well. At least my partner's mei. =) Haha. Decided upon stage directions and positioning too. Basically, dancing became just sitting around and listening to music after a while? Then erm... A bit too much of pondering taking place? Yeps. Anyway, went back home at around 5:45. Really should get used to it, staying in school though I don't have to. Went home, bathed. (Finally...) Then went for lcell. The bus didn't like me so took 15 minutes to come which resulted in my being late and not having time for dinner. Disclaimer: I did eat in the end, ok? But at around 9:45? Heehee. Talked to mei for a while before reaching home. Blogged for a while then went to my room and finished up a book (reading a book while using handphone light is tiring cause need to keep the display screen active...). Couldn't sleep yet so took out my diary and started writing. By now, I turned on my study light already. Blocked the light for reaching my brother though. But anyway, dad came in to check on me so wasn't in the mood to continue writing and ended up talking to sammi on the phone. =p Laadeedaa. The conversation was let's see... A bit disturbing. Oh well, talking to her always serves as a nice reality check and she can have fun dismissing any illusions I have about stuff. And let's not forget her analyzing situations for me. Yeps. So fun. Yayness. Broke a record, i think. 3 hours. Yeps.

Ah. There. End of recounting already. Shall blog about certain stuff on my msn space or should I do it here? Urk.

Fine. May as well just blog here. Anyway, something happened in the course of yesterday that made me realized something. I rather not blog about what happened but anyway, it'll be fairly obvious to those who were with me yesterday. Sammi's right. When I get involved, I get involved too deeply. Urk... I want to go more in-depth and blog about the situation itself but I just can't, not with the knowledge that people do read this blog. At least, certain people do and that's enough to stop me from elaborating.

-bounces-

Hiya! I shall go hyper now. Actually, I shouldn't. If not, cannot sleep. And I told mei and kor that I'm sleeping early. But pft... Can't decided what to pack for tomorrow. To shower in school or not? Laadeedaa. Why am I blogging now ah? Anyway, shall actually bring water out tomorrow. -gasps- Normally, I don't. Actually if I do, I still don't normally drink but I'll be guai tomorrow, okie? So no need to force me to drink. Yeps. Why does this seem like I'm addressing certain people? -shrugs- Heehee. Yeps. Shaln't blog anymore. But today, school was weirdly fun. Yeps. Even though my own words were thrown back at me. -pouts- Haha. There there. Gdnight. Take care. Yeps.

Today

Today was interesting and thought-provoking.

I'll fast foward to mentoring session then. We've been doing the DISC personality test and analysing our results. I'll list some character traits of each type then you can have fun guessing what I am. (It's kind of obvious?)

D: Driven, direct, decisive, determined, dominant, etc... Basically, they're more of the leader in the group.

I: Inspiring, influencing, inducing, talkative, life of the party, etc...
Yeps. Life of the party, etc.

S: Stable, secure, shy, reluctant leader, etc...
Basically, think those people who give off security, etc.

C: control, correct, concise, compliant, etc...
It's like those who stick to the rules tightly, yeps.

Ok... I'm _ followed by _ then a bit of _. But there's one that I'm definitely not. I'll reveal that at the end. Anyway, it's quite accurate but one thing I realized is that I've not a lot of the weaknesses of the strongest personality types. Out of 7 or more weaknesses, only 2 apply to me. Disorganized, think with feelings/emotions... There was one weakness that's kind of a sore topic. More words than actions or in another form NATO (No action, talk only...) That's the weakness of -insert person- and because my mum mentioned my similarity to that person in terms of this trait, I've made a conscious effort to improve. But yes... I got a bit moodier as I realized how I have changed and how bad things were. Thanks mei. It meant quite a lot to me to have you beside me. Stopped me from being even more moody and I became happy & hyper. =) But yes, I was realizing how my two "siblings" have put in effort to make me smile when I'm down. Thanks.

Next, skipped Journalism and went for Choir instead. "We're all in this together" Anyway, it was ok... But I guess it's hard when your hyperness level is higher than most of the people there? But jiayou, okies? Especially for mei, nes and kor. We've gotten this far, let's continue persevering and doing our best. =) But yeps, the classroom time was a lot more fun?

Fyi, I'm I-S-C. Yeps.

Mood graph

It's been 4 days since I last blogged? Haiz. Been wanting to blog actually but was just too caught up with other stuff.

Anyway, as usual, I'll start off with a quick recount of the previous days. Then might blog in more detail about certain stuff?

Friday. No school and yet I found myself back in school from 12-5? Haha. But before that, went back to NYGH. -gasps- I actualy went back! (being too dramatic...) But yes, went back with Vanessa before going back to school. Had something like a sing-along session of high school musical? Before practicing the dance itself. Yeps. Very fun. And I think we drove Lux nuts. We referring to ... -drum rolls- Kor, Mei, Vanessa and myself. Yeps. Let's see. Practiced. Brainstormed on various aspects of the dance such as colour scheme, dressing, roles, etc... Fun-ness. =)

Saturday! Ohh. Watched pirates of the carribean with ... -drum rolls- same grp of people lah. =) Yeps. Had brunch at KFC before going to HMV at heeren and going a bit hyper. =p We shared a High School Musical DVD. Each one pay a bit. Haha. Yeps. Then rushed for the movie. Got hyper even before the movie started. x) Then after that, had to rush for church. (Rushing around too much...) Service was good, to be reminded of certain stuff that I've forgotten. Things that God spoke to me about before... Gave dinner a miss since I've been going out too much and was feeling a bit guilty so dinner with family.

Sunday. D&D followed by LCE. Not much that I want to blog about actually... Let's just say that day could have been better but never mind. Just various stuff combined together formed quite a bad combination.

Today. Hmm. Normal day, I guess... Oh, read through some of old blog entries again. Weirdness. Why do I keep reading the entries? Haiz. I think I know why. To remember the past. I still can't let it go. There's still this need in me to compare how things were and how things are. To look foward, that takes time. I do look foward but I do look back too. That's the problem.

Another thing... I've not been hyper enough, I think. Even right now, I'm not smiling. It takes a lot to make myself smile now. But there's one thing that almost never fails to bring a smile to my face nowadays... Let's just say the question, "How's school?" can make my whole face light up. That's good, isn't it? But at the same time, I wonder why my face doesn't light up anymore for other stuff... Pft. Enough of this mood. It's not really moodiness or depression or anything, ok... Just to set the record straight. But this weird kind of mood. Oh well. Laadeedaa. (You're right, haven't been using this expression much...)

weird questions

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head.
After that tag at least 5 people to do this.

1. Renee
2. Samantha
3. Tian Cheng
4. Isaac
5. Hui Shi
6. Gloria
7. Shao Wen
8. Joseph
9. Jonathan
10. Sylvie
11. Bryan

1. How did you meet 10?
> Sylvie - Hmm. From school. But she was like my neofriend on neopets since a few years ago. lol. coincidence?

2.What would you do if you never met 2
> Samantha - I'll be sad cause life wouldn't be as fun and I'll lose one person to talk on the phone with.

3.What would you do if 9 and 11 dated?
> Jonathan and Bryan?! My brother and my ex-classmate?! Age difference aside, they're both guys! -faints-

4.Do you like 7?
> Shao Wen - Yeps. One of my kors (and the one that prob bullies me the most?) =)

5.would 5 and 6 make a good couple?
> Hui Shi and Gloria? Erm. Let's see. No! For one, their gender. That aside, personality-wise, almost no way.

6.Describe 3.
> Tian Cheng. Ohh. This is fun! He's my nice kor (yes, you're nice) who gets too influenced by his meis. Lol.

7.Do you think 8 is attractive?
> Joseph. Erm?! Personally, I don't think so. (no offence...)

8.Tell me something about 2.
> Samantha - The poems that she writes are nice to read.

9.Do you know any of 4's family?
> Nope. Unless you count his "sister" - mel. =p

10.Whats 5's favourite things?
> Hui Shi - quite a few.. But for starters, writing in notebooks, gushing over cute stuff or babies. Yeps

11.What would you do if 3 confesses he/she likes you?
> Tian Cheng - I'll probably be stunned. In fact, I'll be stunned regardless who it is.

12.What language does 6 speak?
> Gloria - English, Chinese. Can't remember if there's any other language/dialect...

13.Who is 9 going out with?
> Jonathan - My bro's like not even 6 years old?!

14. How old is 8 now?
> Joseph - 15+ years

15.When was the last time you talked to 1?
> Renee - Today. (duh!) At around 5:30pm when I said "Bye". Lol.

16.What is 2's favourite band/singer?
> Samantha - Hmm. No particular favourite if I remember correctly. Various singers and bands.

17.Would you ever date 7?
> Shao Wen - Nope. She's my kor! (ah... the contradiction)

18.Would you ever date 11?
> Bryan - Nope.

19. Have you ever seen 2 naked?
> Samantha - Duh, no.

5 People whom you want to pass this on to
Samantha
Tian Cheng
Hui Shi
Bryan
Joseph

That's all for now... Shall blog again later.

hyper-ness!

Yayness! I'm getting a bit too hyper?! Haha. Anyway, today was great. =) Skipped journalism and went for choir instead. Ohh well. It was so fun doing the dance for "We're all in this together". *coughs* sashay! *coughs* Haha. But ya... -bounces- Too bad kor and mei had to leave early. Anyway, this entry is to tell you two that I won't b online when you all reach home cause I'm be watching HSM on the other computer and that one has no internet connection. You two sleep early, ok? -pointed look at kor- Mei's been rather guai, been slping earlier than me. But that's cause I stay up to read the books I've borrowed. Let's see. Think I'll sleep relatively earlier today. Yeps. Sms me or smth. Up 2 you two. Anyway kor, you need to reteach the wildcats part. Me and vanessa could barely remember that part. But she just got it by watching the video... Where's the video? Lol. Doesn't matter. You can teach us. =) That's all. -weirdness- This entry has like become a short letter to you two. Yeps. Oh well... Saves sms, doesn't it?

Urk.

Pft. Spent close to 1 hour doing weird quizzes and fixing the html codes of the results and then my internet connection went hay-wire and I couldn't publish my entry. Greatness. I shall repeat 2 quizzes only. Sighs.


You Are Snow White!

Pure and trusting. You are a gentle soul who can get along with just about anyone. Everyone you meet instantly falls in love with you. How can they resist? You have a pure, lovable nature that's irresistable. Just don't trust everyone that comes across your path.
Which Disney Princess Are You?

Lycanthrope
Your a lycanthrope: a werecreature, a shifter, a werewolf. You have a strang dual-nature but you are a loyal and protective person. You thrive during in-between times: dawn and dust, when the veils of the world are thinest. You stick close to your family and friends though you often steal off on your own. You are rather mysterious and have a secret side that most don't know about.


Losing It Occasionally




You are quite a bit on the uber-excitable side. You have no probelm freaking out in public, though this does not happen TOO often. You get excited over simple things and sometimes situations can get the best of you. However, you do have -some- level of self-control over yourself. Sugar contributes to your 'condition'.
How Excitable Are You?


Water!

Water is also a bit of a bipolar element.
While necessary for life, it can take lives. Drown, you die, but drink, you live.
it's a fascinating concept.
Those of the water element are usually passive, but when angered can strike quickly. You should not be underestimated. For the most part, you may appear to be quiet and calm, but on the inside, you could be boiling.
You may have problems controlling and hiding your emotions. This is okay.
Just a tip: don't be so quick to anger. Try and control your anger. Don't be so quick to boil. Keep your cool ALL the time.
What element best decribes you?

Done with the quizzes. =) I shaln't analyse each result, can't be bothered. But I'm happy that my element's still water. =)

weekend

Hmm... I was thinking of editing the high school musical entry but eventually, I just decided to continue blogging about friday and all in this entry instead. Yeps.

Friday was fun! To be more precise, the day became very nice and enjoyable after we finished the math bridging module. A few of us stayed back in school to practice the choreography for "We're all in this together". =) Yeps. Thank you kor for figuring out the steps and teaching us. But before that, we were singing along to the soundtrack. I think Lu Xin was surprised at how 4 of us (Kor, Mei, Vanessa and I) knew the lyrics to every single song? Really relaxing and lots of fun! Sorry to gan jie, shao, glo... Heehee. Didn't meet up with you all. Anyway, practicing the moves were fun and all. We even showed Dr Wong and Ms Flo the dance. Yeps. And took advantage of the air-con in the staffroom. =) Ohh! I get to skip Journalism to go for Choir practice this wednesday. After that, we left the school at around 4. Wow. I didn't expect to stay in school for so long. Went to Jurong Regional Library. Ah, my weekly visit to that place. =) Went a bit crazy borrowing books. -pokes kor- Haha. I really should control myself and not borrow almost every single book that looks interesting. Wanted to stay longer but had to rush home and change before going for dinner. So went home and left my house within 15 minutes. New record for me, I think. Went Macs and met up with pple from Lcell. Yeps. Then went to church for Lcell. Ohh. Power Base is nice! Comfy sofas. =) Ohh... Talked to Mei on the way home from church. We ended up singing songs from HSM over the phone?!

Anyway, saturday... Slept in til 11 or so. Then did a bit of homework and read quite a bit. After that, the inevitable dolling-up session. Haiz. My mum's enjoying herself, that's for sure. Had to attend the wedding dinner of my godma's auntie's son... Go figure that out? Haha. Anyway, left the house early so walked around Far East a bit before going to the Hyatt. Ok... The next part of my entry would tell you how "much" exposure to such a situation. Ok... Had to wear a dress and erm... a choker? But I kind of understood why when we entered the hotel. It's like WHOA! Especially when I saw the other guests and all. Think glamour and elegance all around. Didn't know anyone so just followed my mum around... Why does everyone seem to recognize me and I can't recognize them? With the sole exception of my godma and her auntie, of course. (I'm not that bad... Remembered them.) Anyway, the most common comment of the day "Ohh, your daughter so tall. She was so small when i last saw her. So pretty." Uhhuh... Right. -cringe- Anyway, my mum was jokingly asking my godma's auntie's daughter whether I could become an SQ stewardess... 0.0 Oh yes. It seems to run in their family that most of the girls are/were SQ stewardess. That tells you how tall and pretty they are. Yeps. Haha. Anyway, during dinner, I was the youngest at the table (duh!) so was being fed and everyone insisted on me eating more? Like even a stranger sitting next to me was scooping food onto my plate? Anyway, the last course was served 11 plus so reached home only at 12 plus... Then parents went to sleep and erm... took that opportunity to stay up and read. My excuse for staying up? Had to wait for my hair to dry before sleeping... Ya, right. Lol. Anyway, smsed like 3 pple and didn't really expect any replies but 2 of them replied. Anyway, finished 1 book and decided to start on another book and erm... Ended up sleeping at 3. Heehee. So much for slping soon? Heehee. Don't kill me, ok? Anyway, I woke up close to noon today so ya... More than enough sleep.

Hmm. Oh ya, I realized that there's an excessive mention of Kor and Mei in each of my blog entries? Haha. And on the bus, I kept mentioning Mei to my mum. Tsk myself. Mei, get home soon... I'm like blogging and doing other stuff while waiting for your phone call. Lol. Haha. Then can get hyper over HSM! =)

High School Musical

Yayness! Anyway, the title's of this entry is High School Musical. Yeps. It'll seem weird if I just jump straight into gushing on about the soundtrack if I don't mention the title. Anyway, thanks Kor for the soundtrack! =) (Hmm... Been thanking you a lot for the soundtrack. Not allowed to sigh, ok? Lol) But yeps. The songs are nice! -gushes- And it's fun to sing it together with Mei!! But ya. The lyrics are of course always stuck in my head nowadays. Ohh... I must catch up to Kor and Mei. They almost memorized all the lyrics already. Haha. All 3 of us have been listening to it excessively, have we not? And the show... Hmm. The choreography's not bad. Nice to watch along with the songs. -hints- Wants to watch it again... Lol. Got to go now... Yeps.

music

Music. It's become more and more important to me these few years. Music not just in terms of me playing the piano but also songs...
Anyway, piano lesson started of as letting me have a try and it went on from Primary 2 til now. Hmm. At first, it was a routine to practice and get the stickers then my attitude deproved, I guess? But recently, last year, the piano became an outlet to release my emotions. Hmm. The few times that I cried while playing the piano. Ok. Just realized something freaky... I seem to be missing those times of tears. Not good. Weirdness... But now, all the memories come flooding back. Times when I could be doing something with tears just streaming now. Haiz? Back to music... Hmm. Anyway, love the fact that I have a piano I can call my own. -hugs the piano- Lol.
Next, songs... Hmm. I've already blogged about how I grew up with Disney songs. But just listening to songs in general is something I've also grown used to. Childhood days, my mum singing to me as I fall asleep. Currently, my having to listento my MP3 player before I fall asleep. Anywhere I go, I have to bring my MP3 player along... And not forgetting my having to play some songs while I'm using the computer or reading. Maybe it's cause I cannot stand prolonged silence but having music play in the background is really calming and relaxingl. That's why I always enjoyed this particular situation. Me being in my room, lying on my bed with the aircon on, reading a good book with music playing in the background. Strange how the busier I get, the more I am able to find time for such a situation. =) I think that's enough blogging for today. Ohh. I enjoy changing the songs in my MP3 player but I just realized that there's a severe lack of new songs lately. Oh well... -hints-

relapse

If I remembered correctly, my current blogskin doesn't show the title of each entry... Oh well, out of point.

Finished reading "The Tenth Circle" by Jodi Picoult today. Some memories came and "haunted" me but considering that I didn't break down or anything, that's good, right? Hmm. Anyway, was watching disc 15 & 16 of "Top of the Forbidden City". Still trying to figure out why my cheeks were a bit damp during the show... Is it because I was moved by the show or was there more to those tears? Hmm. It wasn't like I became moody or anything but rather this mood that I always can't seem to describe. It's not a positive emotion cause I can't seem to smile but it's not negative either cause I'm not crying... It's in between. But still... Haiz. I'm in this weird mood quite a lot this few days. Oh well. Never mind...

start of something new?

Hmm. There's the urge to blog about the previous few days since it's become a habit but I've not been in the mood to blog so I think I'll make this entry really short. And I'll not elaborate on most things. Yeps.

Thursday
O levels Chinese Oral. New town secondary school. Piano lesson.

Friday
Youth Day celebration. Kor. Mei. Irritation. Rising of flag. Jurong Entertainment Centre. Pizza Hut. Being bullied. Library. Accomplishment. Influence.

Saturday
Nanyang funfair. Mistaken identity. Scandals. High school musical. Pasta. Meteorite. Presents. Sylvester. Dinner. Mad Jack. Issues. Island Creamery. Stoning. Waiting.

Hmm... Haven't blogged like that before. But ya, some of it makes a lot of sense while other things... you need to be there to know what I'm talking about. Lol. Never mind. Satisfied. I've blogged while not having to elaborate. Got to go to church soon for "Shout your fame". Pft. Renee can't go. -sulks-

Disney

Ok... There's seiously a lack of time for me to blog before I'm chased off the computer but I've been wanting to blog about about Disney ever since getting the soundtrack of Bambi 2 on Monday. (Thanks again. Lol.) But anyway, listening to the songs and just enjoying it made me remember of the past when Disney songs were like the only kind of songs that I knew of and could memorized the lyrics to quite a few. Hmm.
Shall do a quick summary of how I got introduced to Disney and how it kind of became part of me? Not just the songs, but some of the shows too. But more of songs actually... When I was young, as in like primary 1 or 2, Snow White was the first Disney film I watched. Then the list just continue... Various disney shows. But I like the songs a lot more, I guess. Hmm. The 3 CD "Disney Forever" collection from young... Ahh. It's probably around 7 years old? I remember how I used to replay the first few tracks of a certain CD a few times cause those were my favourites and began to memorize the lyrics (not on purpose...) Anyway, Disney soundtracks were mainly what I listened to and almost never heard pop songs... Seriously. Like my first real impression of pop songs were in primary 4. One song only. "My love" by Westlife... Out of point. Back to the topic at hand. Even now, though I listened to more songs, there's still a folder labelled "Disney" in my MP3 player, filled with several of my favourite songs... Mostly, I like them because of the lyrics but at other times, just the song in general. Been wanting to do a list of my favourite Disney songs and here goes... (not in any order.)

1) I won't say (I'm in love) - Hercules
2) If I never knew you - Pocahontas
3) Just around the riverbend - Pocahontas
4) Shooting star - Hercules
5) Reflections - Mulan
6) Can you feel the love tonight? - The Lion King
7) A whole new world - Aladdin
8) Beauty and the beast - Beauty and the Beast
9) Go the distance - Hercules
10) God help the outcasts - The Hunchback of Notre Dame
11) Part of your world - The Little Mermaid
12) Something there - Beauty and the Beast
13) There is life - Bambi 2
14) You'll be in my heart - Tarzan

Yeps... Don't think that's it but it shall do for now. Anyway, another short (?) list of favourite songs that's not from Disney but rather, animated films. Just produced by the other companies...

1) At the beginning - Anastasia
2) Journey to the past - Anastasia
3) Looking through your eyes - Quest for Camelot
4) The prayer - Quest for Camelot
5) On my father's wings - Quest for Camelot

Getting chased off the computer now so bye.

first day of the new term

Hmm... Today was kind of different. PE first thing in the morning.
-cringe- Somehow, I almost blacked out... Nausea. Felt kind of disoriented and all. And it was like that went on for about 1 hr after running, which is kind of disturbing... Pft. Anyway, the rest of the day was ok. Ack. Module clash again. But more expected this time. Music theory or 3D art? Shall have to decide soon. Ohh! Got Bambi 2 soundtrack today! -jumps- Yayness. Thanks kor. Anyway, listening and enjoying the soundtrack made me think of my childhood obsession with Disney (that's still kind of exists). Lol. Hmm. Disney. The songs especially accompanied me through my childhood, all the way til upper primary. Even now, some songs are just really really nice and lift up my mood. =) I want to do a longer entry on Disney and all... But due to time constraints (guilty conscience of using the computer and tiredness), shall stop here for today. Maybe tomorrow? On a side-note: Is it a wise idea to dump 9 library books in my new bag? Not including school stuff... Haiz. Heavy bag tomorrow...

coffee bean

Hmm... Time for another blog entry, I guess. A short one about yesterday and maybe today? -sniffs-

Met up with Sister Serena for lunch @ macs, talked to her, went to church. Service. For me, it was more of a reinforcement of things raised up during the conference... Went to Holland Village to wait for sammi. Oh well. Bad hearing. Thought she said meet at 5:30 but it was actually she'll leave her friend's hse at 5:30. So I was stoning outside Delifrance when I saw people from church. Heehee. Was supposed to have dinner as a section but i skipped. But still ended up seeing them at Holland V. Joined them while waiting for sammi. Stole a bit of food from jeann and then wandered around holland v with sammi. Wasn't sure what to do then I was random enough to suggest watching a movie but oh well, didn't cause of some reasons. Ended up at Coffee Bean. Nice comfy chairs! =) Bought something else other than my normal... For once. Blackforest. Only realized when I started drinking that it contained coffee. (yes yes, that was slow...) But not bad. Talked to sammi for about 2 hours there. Hmm... Made my way back home. And I'm too nice to sammi. Lol. Can't say no to her. Ended up staying awake til 2am... Haiz?! I blame it on the coffee. Lol. I wasn't tired til around that time... Which is unusual..

Today. A lot of lazing around the house. Yay. Watched another 2 disc of <>! Haiz. School starting tomorrow. Don't really dread it but don't look foward to it either? -shrugs- Hmm, High School Musical starting in 15 minutes or so? Shall go be a couch potato for the next 2 hrs... That's all then.

realizations...

The last time I blogged was 5 days ago. So many things have changed in such a short time. Things changing not really referring to situations and all but rather more of something inside of me.

Memories. Snapshots of past times. Most of the stuff that I've been wanting to blog about concerned these few things. Don't really know how to start blogging. My thoughts are still rather disorganized. And trying to blog using chronological order doesn't work. Hmm... Ok. Let me just do a quick recount of the previous days first then work on that. Been spending most of the time in church from wednesday to friday because of Life Conference. It's been refreshing. Just like how I didn't want last year IGNYTE conference in June to end, I didn't want it to end. Not yet anyway.

I haven't even touched on what I've wanted to blog about. Haiz. Ok. Hmm. There's been so many times where various sceneshots from the past just fill my mind. And it's almost always the same few... I feel like blogging about some of them. The one that's rather interesting is one in which I was at the balcony in Nanyang last year. Time for a quick explanation for those who don't really understand what I'm talking about. Last year in nanyang, our class had a balcony and I would retreat there quite a fair bit. Yes, note the usage of the word "retreat"... Anyway, I think I've cried a fair bit out on the balcony. But there's this time that keeps flashing through my head. I was feeling rather down and all. Looking at the sky and singing Christian songs just to let it all out? At that time, sadness and all was really all I felt. But right now, as I look back to those times at the balcony, I miss it so so much. It's been quite a while since I turned to God with such desperation... And other than that, that time was just a retreat, just like how Sentosa became a retreat too...

There are of course a few other snapshots from the past that kept going through my head during Life Conference. The other one was from DL days... I can't remember the time and all but I do remember just crying at the altar and Pastor Priscilla was there praying for me and my mum came over and hugged me. Haiz... I have a fairly good idea what I was crying about. Oh well... That sceneshot coupled with the singing of a song from DL days made me think about how it's been in church the past few years. Things have changed... A lot. Internal and external.

Other things have been triggering off various memories and sceneshots. A lot of stuff and a lot of memories... Even that day when I was packing my cupboard and making it neater, folding the clothes could bring me back to the past. Certain pieces of clothes mean quite a lot to me. One reason why I'm reluctant to throw some of it away.

Enough about memories and all though. A bit more about Life conference. It's been good. The issues that God spoke to me about were what I've been avoiding. The same few things... There are always images that go through my head a lot, either sceneshots from the past or just images. It used to be that of a rope almost cut into two pieces and was just being held together by a few strands of thread and a few other images which I rather not blog about. It's changed... During altar call, some images came into my head. Situations that I didn't think about before, situations I would not have thought possible... Well. It's time to believe, isn't it? I want those images to come true. I believe they will, one day.

stuff...

Urk. I'm being forgetful. -pokes myself- Like forgetting to change my MSN nickname. Oh well. Not many people noticed so it's ok. =) Other than gan jie... Haiz? Expected. Never mind. Only blogging here right now cause I refuse to let myself blog the 3rd entry of the day on my private blog. 2 entries are more than enough... (Ya. As if.) Laadeedaa... Urk. It's hard to blog on this blog since it's my so-called public blog... But the best part of this whole situation is that I can't really tell what's bothering me. I can't even say that I'm moody. I'm just not happy. That's all... Haiz. This entry doesn't make much sense. Don't worry. It's not just you. Even I don't fully understand why and what I'm blogging.

malaysia... once more.

Hiya. Back from a 3 day trip to Malaysia once again... Wasn't really expecting that much from the trip but as usual, kind of proven wrong.

16th Jun, Friday
Early wake-up call. -cringe- 4+ am? Left the house, met with relatives at their house, drove up to Genting with one break in between. Lunch. Walked around. Took a few rides. Rofl. Laadeedaa. Erm.. Sat on the merry-go-round with my bro and cousins? Haha. Got chased off the nice horse by the guy in charge. -sniffs- Ohh. Candy floss! Haha. The sad thing was there wasn't time for the outdoor theme park so was confined indoors. It was raining! Nice weather... Uncle asked if I wanted to walk around -in the rain-... Heehee. I wanted to but oh well... I think I'll get dragged back indoors? Drove to the hotel to check in. Had a rather late dinner before heading back to the hotel room to sleep. Ohh. Did I mention that my mum was nice enough to let me bring doggie along? Hmm. Not big doggie but the medium size one. -hugs- Yeps. Had to sleep on the floor in the sleeping bag but I'm used to it already so it wasn't that bad?

17th Jun, Saturday
Woke up at 7 plus, went down for breakfast... Oh yes, interesting name of the cafe. The hotel I stayed in was Hotel Nova and erm... the cafe was like Casanova cafe? Yeps. After breakfast, get ready to go Sunway Lagoon. Whee! Ok... Let me first state that it was my first time to Sunway Lagoon so erm... Excessive hyperness? Haha. Went there and was waiting for my uncle at the lift lobby and erm... saw this whole group of guys streaming out of the lift. Let's see. When some of them were wearing t-shirts with their school name or house name on it, it gets really obvious which school they're from. Yes, it's a school in Singapore. Which one? Go guess... Anyway, my mum had fun teasing me so ya... Good thing they walked away soon after. (Haiz. If only that was the last time I saw them...) Uhhuh. Went to sunway lagoon. -feels accomplished- Haha. Helped my dad to get the tickets before hand so didn't have to queue up. Some people shouldn't all crowd together and block the way... Laadeedaa. Let's see. Was getting hyper over the rides.. Couldn't wait to start trying out the rides but had to play with my brother and cousins first. Yayness... Ok. There's this really nice ride that I like. Dragged my mum along to try it at first. It's the one where you slide head-first down on a mat. I can't really describe it but it's fun cause there's water involved! Yeps. Won my mum. =) Then she convinced my dad to try... Let's see. Pft. I lost to my dad... Like he reached the bottom before me and he went further too. So I was like "whining" and "sulking" away as I walked away from the ride. Childish, I know. But it was fun. Played the ride twice more. Lost both times to my dad again. Haiz. 3-0. Oh yes, it's really interesting to see how people get addicted to the ride. I couldn't really see faces clearly cause I took off my specs so I recognize strangers by their clothes? Haha. To be really specific, their berms/shorts/etc... (It's a water theme park. What do you expect?) Oh well. Like... "Doesn't that pair of black bermudas look familiar?" Was highly amused myself. Rest of the rides are ok... The Python failed to meet expectations. Not thrilling enough. The other ride was ok... Hmm. It started raining so had to head to shelter. But since the rain didn't seem to stop, we decided to just rush to the shopping mall. Had late lunch. KFC. Walked around with my mum. I declare that she likes to tease me. Example: "I think I just saw some -insert name of school- guys walking around?" Like huh?! Ohh. Went to this shop with relatively nice bags... And finally bought one! Whee! -jumps up and down- Finally have a new school bag. I've been really picky... Oh well. But yes, no more sling-bag to school. -sniffs- Oh well, never mind. I like my new bag! Anyway, went to this comic shop and there was this offer on chinese books so erm... bought 4 novels? Yes, they're all in Chinese. Had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming. But yes, couldn't resist. Went back to the hotel, bathe, eat dinner. Mum wanted to walk around but since everyone else was tired, only we went. We wanted to go to this specific street but wasn't too sure how to get there. Reached there anyway. 20 minutes of walking. Not bad. Browsed around. Nothing much... Wanted to buy gifts for kor and mei but nothing suitable. So sorry. Walked back to the hotel. Bought supper! -slurps- Ramly burger... Ate in the hotel room. Went to sleep...

18th Jun, Sunday
Woke up really grumpy and grounchy. Left eyelid was slightly swollen + severe lack of sleep. (Didn't sleep well the last night. Woke up a few times...) Skipped breakfast. Got woke up again. Checked out of the hotel. Drove to Malacca for lunch. Yay! Nyonya chendol. Sweetness. =) Yes, I have a sweet tooth. Drove back home, etc, etc... Oh yes. Was playing a game with my mum to keep us awake during the drive back home. A-Z list of guys' name... Haha. Amusement. Yeps. Pft. Some letters really hard to come up with names. Shall leave it at that. Yeps. Shall go to bed soon. Miss my bed and big doggie. -hugs-

sleepless night

This entry will probably be really confusing and the content would be highly disorganized and all over the place, so sorry in advance. Here goes...

Couldn't sleep at all last night so became really restless. (Can't believe that I can blog about not being able to sleep...) Oh well. Anyway, went to bed at around 11:20 with my mp3 player on (as usual...) and just listened to the few new songs in the player. At 11:40, realized that I was not going to doze off that soon so sent out 1 sms. Hmm. No response so I ended up amusing myself by trying to write in my diary in the dark. Sat on my nice chair and was trying to write properly and all. But since the only light source was from the lights in the corridor outside which shone through my window, it wasn't that effective. Anyway, made a list of things that I wanted to blog about...

This list came about when I was being restless and my mind started drifting and thinking about various things... Topics ranging from the realization that this blog hasn't seen a moody/angsty entry in quite some time and the reason behind that to like things that I want to get, etc... Oh well. Let's see if I can remember all 6 things that I wanted to blog about.
1) The lack of moody/angsty entries in this blog (filtering?) and the reason behind it
2) Family?
3) Things that I want to get
4-6) I rather not put it down into words for you all to read?

Shall blog a bit on the things I thought about last night before resuming the recount on the 2+ hours before I finally settled down enough to sleep. Hmm... I've realized that many a times, I just blog about interesting events in my day and all. After reading through all my blog entries yesterday, it's really interesting to see the change in mood and content of the entries. Last year was really too much angst and moodiness. This year, I'm glad it's a lot more light-hearted and all but I've realized that's only cause I think I'm filtering a lot of stuff. I either blog about the issues in really vague terms or I just avoid it totally. Normally, I would turn to my MSN space or even my private blog about issues and all but I think I've been avoiding the problem/s and all. Last night/this morning was really just me being super restless and thinking quite a bit about stuff. Ohh, this might sound weird but I just feel like blogging honestly without any filtering so ya... Just lying on my bed and listening to my mp3 player somehow triggered off something in me. I wanted to cry. I almost did too, I think. But ya... That was just weird. Haiz.

Oh yes, I shall try to find a nice blogskin and edit my profile/wishlst. But that might take a while. Considering how picky I am when it comes to blogskins. -shrugs-

Ok... Anyway, back to my recount of how I was restless and couldn't sleep. Ended up doing sit-ups and stretching exercises on my bed. Yeps. Was that bored. I wanted to write/blog at that moment but couldn't since it'll wake my parents up so resorted to doing those activities. Then still couldn't sleep. By then, should have been close to 1. Sent yet another sms. Hmm. Decided to like sleep upside-down. As in just reverse direction. Placed my pillow on the other end of the bed. Oh well, proves that I'm weird. The things I do when I can't sleep. After listening to more songs on my player and thinking of random stuff, smsed a bit and finally went to sleep. Whew. That was irritating, ok? Like from 11:20pm - 2am, wanting to sleep but just couldn't. Haiz?! Ok... -pinch myself- I'm not dreaming. I just blogged another entry on how I couldn't sleep and the things I did. And it hasn't been that long since I had a similar entry. Oh well. Pft.

Shall go and watch my nice nice show and gush/swoon/squeal over the characters? Haha. Doubt so but never mind. Just remembered that I still haven't packed my bag for the trip. Fyi, for those who don't know, I'll be going Malaysia from tomorrow morning til like Sunday night. Sighs. Not bringing my handphone so won't b able to contact me. Yeps. Haiz... I'm feeling rather sleepy now. Hmm. Maybe shouldn't watch my show and just play the piano or something? Let's see... Decide later. Time to end the blog entry. Bye! Will miss you all when I'm in malaysia. =)

Going out...

Hmm. As usual, I'll just be blogging about the previous days, including today. I think I'll not bother blogging about the weekend much since it was rather normal other than erm... getting roped in by my relatives to play mahjong. Yeps. Then sunday, usual. Too bad it was raining so couldn't swim.

Yesterday, went to watch "She's the man" with Renee and Mel at Cineleisure. Then went heeren before meeting Isaac at City Hall. Lunch, walking around Suntec, going to J8, just sitting down there and stoning + a bit of chatting... Ohh... Yayness! More or less figured out what I'm going to get at Jigsaw Puzzle World (finally...). Anyway, since my mum kind of agree to let me spend $200 there, it was kind of hard to decide what to get and all but yeps. Eye-ing one of those puzzles with a rather mystical feel. Bonus: there's a dolphin in the picture of that puzzle. The sad thing is too much of the money would be spent on frames for the various puzzles that I have... Oh well.

Hmm. Today. Had to run some errands at Raffles Place. Met kor for lunch. Then after that, went Jurong library and tried to find nice books. Couldn't really find anything nice to read. Came home, read a while then talked to mei on the phone. Dinner. Mum got a bit upset at me over a certain issue so things were rather tense. Was trying to calm myself down and relax by playing songs on the piano. Yay! Now have the piano score for "At the beginning". Thanks kor. =) Hmm... Anyway, I realized playing the piano has become a form of relaxation and at times, a way to let out my frustrations and just release my emotions.

~ Things have changed in unexpected ways ~
~ Why is it we never see things til they're right in front of our eyes?~
(Lol. Reminds me of how things were before lunch... Mos burger. Lol. But not only that...)

simple things that make me smile

~Why does everything seem to remind me of the same things over and over again?~

Went to shao's house yesterday to just laze around. Played with the dogs as usual, watched Saw 2, went to her room and helped her with her jigsaw puzzle and used the computer for a while. Hmm... I did become a bit reflective at certain points in time. Don't really feel like blogging much about it right now but maybe later on in this entry. After that, went to watch "Cars" with my mum and Jonathan. Didn't really expect much from the show at first but as usual, I'm proven wrong... Though it's cliched and all, it reminded me of some things. And after that, I went a bit hyper. Was saying "Ka-ching" a lot... =)

Yesterday was just lazing at home the whole day. Bought a new chinese series a few days ago so was just watching it "marathon-style". 3-4 discs non-stop. And was really freaking myself out too. For those who've seen me hyper, imagine me more hyper by many more levels. I was erm... making random noises, criticizing the characters (as usual), venting out my frustration on whatever was nearby. Heehee... Basically, really crazy and hyper. And erm, add gushing/swooning/squealing over the characters to the picture. Oops? Haha. Me swooning and squealing is really scary. Trust me. I should know. But ya... Whee! Qing Tian and Tian Xie! Haha... Those are the names of the 2 main characters. Poor Renee. Had to put up with me for a while over the phone. Thanks. =)

Ok. I'll blog about some of the things that I thought about at shao's house. Interesting how Saw 2 can make me think of certain things. Do we only value things/people more when we know that we're about to lose them? Oh. And in her room, helping her with the jigsaw puzzle, I really enjoy such times. Simplicity. Oh well. Anyway, "Cars" also reminded me of the same thing over and over again. Sighs. I'm not really going to spell out what I was reminded of but yes... The first line in my entry sums it out, I guess.

~learning to enjoy the simple things in life...~

More "scandalous" incidents...

Laadeedaa. Finally blogging about last week and stuff. Whee! Friday! =) Went out with hui shi, zheng xuan, adwyn and bryan. McDonalds' hotcakes are nice! -slurps- bryan is evil... he was tempting me with that pack of pure sugar. Pft. Me didn't want to go all hyper so ya... Watched poseidon again then after that, walked around a bit, met up with isaac. Pool! =) Then met up with hui shi, they all again. Neoprints. -gushes- the dolphins at Action City are so adorable!
-squeals- I want! Haha. Nah. Just kidding. Have a dolphin at home already but those are just a lot more huggable. -hugs- Ok... I think I'm getting a bit high. Lcell. Back home. -whew- Was worried about mum scolding me for watching poseidon again but well, she didn't say much.

Saturday! Renee came to church! -jumps- Whee! Finally... Anyway, she finally had a chance to meet Mel. Pft. I was bullied again. I want to watch Sky High! Pft... Anyway, the whole day was fun cause Renee came to church! =) (now i think i know why you pple think I'm les... rofl.) Anyway, went for dinner with Renee at Mad Jack. The food's ok... Oh ya, Island Creamery! -slurps- Ice Cream! Ok... I think I'm getting addicted to the ice cream. Too bad Renee had to leave at 8 plus so for the first time in a long while, I actually reached home before 10 on Saturday.

Skip Sunday and Monday. Not that much to blog about really... Ohh... The fun part. Today! Elmi Jie Jie's ROM! =) Anyway, let's do a chronological recap of the day. Woke up at 12. -smiles- Finally slept in for once during the holidays. Lazed around the house before going over to auntie's house with all the clothes and all. Lazed around til 3 before changing and all. Pft. Why is it so fun to doll me up? My mum and auntie seem to enjoy experimenting on me. Make-up, hair, etc... Whew. Good thing elmi jie jie steps in at times.Went to Hark Music Cafe... It's basically a cafe so ya. Might seem weird to hold the ROM there but it suits my cousin since she's musically-inclined and all. The whole thing was quite ok. =) Finally see elmi jie jie getting married! Hmm.. Still have the wedding dinner at the end of the year though. Haha. I'll be more busy then. Btw, new word: flower-maid. It's combination of flower-girl and bridesmaid. Lol. Ya... Hmm. That's about it for now. Feeling a bit sleepy... My sleep hours are upside-down again.